Sunday, August 27, 2006

What may have caused my Cancer Ladies be forewarned

Ok ladies and gents you might want to read a couple of articles I found concerning Hair Dye. I know the last one is long but who cares read the dam thing and stop coloring your hair.

Who gives a crap what your hair looks like if it means you have to go through Chemo and stuff like I have. If I had know coloring my hair one day might give me cancer I might not have done it who knows, but I know now it may have been a contributing factor with my Lymphoma.

I never remember seeing a label that said this product may cause cancer. So ladies how bad do you want color no. 3N Dark Brown on your hair? Me if I get my hair back will never worry about what color it is again.

Dyeing For Lymphoma

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A study published in last weeks American Journal of Epidemiology reveals a link between hair dye and lymphoma risk. Reuters reports:
The researchers found an overall 19 percent increased risk of lymphoma among people who reported coloring their hair. The increased risk was 26 percent among those who used hair dye 12 or more times a year.

People who began coloring their hair before 1980 showed a 37 percent increased lymphoma risk, while those who had only dyed their hair before 1980, but not afterwards, showed a 62 percent increased risk.
Based on the findings, de Sanjose and her team calculate that roughly 10 percent of lymphomas in women could be due to the use of hair dye.
Or here try reading this one. Ok I am getting madder by the moment the more I read.

Safely Gorgeous

Hair Dyes to Die For

Republished with authorized consent of The Doctor's Prescription For Healthy Living, Volume 2, Number 1

In this special report, we present life-saving information about the dangers of commercial hair dyes found in drug stores and beauty supply houses. We show women how to choose safe and healthy hair coloring products which pose no risk. Two great brands are Paul Penders® Color Me Naturally and Light Mountain® Natural Hair Color and Conditioner and Henna Gray.

by David Steinman

Today, 35 to 40 percent of American women, aged 18 to 60 - some 50 million - use hair dyes. That these products, as a class, remain unlabeled for their human cancer hazard is one of the worst public health scandals today.

Because of loopholes in the Federal Food, Drug and Cosmetic Act, these killer products continue to bear no warning whatsoever of a very real cancer hazard. The best thing that women can do to protect their health if they are using these products, particularly the darker shades, is to stop now and seek safer brands.

Proven Women's Cancer Hazard

Specifically, use of permanent and semipermanent hair dyes is associated with increased risk of non-Hodgkinís lymphoma, multiple myeloma, and Hodgkinís disease.1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6,

7, 8, 9 Researchers from the National Cancer Institute estimate 20 percent of all cases among women of non-Hodgkin's lymphoma, the disease that killed Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis, are due to women's use of commercial hair dye products.10 The risk seems to be greatest among users of dark shades.

The evidence is suggestive of an association with breast cancer, as I, together with my co-author Samuel S. Epstein, M.D., reported in The Breast Cancer Prevention Bible (Macmillan 1997).11, 12, 13, 14, 15 The dye para-phenylenediamine, used in virtually every commercial permanent and semipermanent product, was shown in 1986 to be carcinogenic to the breast following oxidation with hydrogen peroxide, precisely as these products are used by women.16

Further evidence of the cancer risk from hair dye use comes from studies of hairdressers that have provided clear evidence both men and women are at increased risk for bladder and other cancers.17, 18, 19, 20, 21

Finally, hair dyes may also pose a risk to children whose mothers used them shortly prior to conception or during pregnancy. In fact, the risk of childhood cancer could be increased by as much as tenfold.22, 23, 24

The Doctors' Prescription for Safe and Healthy Hair Coloring Products

For several years, weíve been following the products of Paul Penders, a Petaluma, California-based cosmetic company. We have been impressed with their purity, quality and the way they deliver great beauty results. Last year, Paul Penders made perhaps one of the truly great and important contributions to consumer health in the cosmetic field in this decade.

The Penders company last year brought out its totally natural temporary hair colors and conditioners to the public. The line is called Paul Penders Color Me Naturally. It is herbally based, totally safe, and works extremely effectively - without ammonia, peroxide, lead or sulfur.

After trying them many people prefer these products to the commercial permanent and semi-permanent hair coloring products sold in drug stores and beauty shops. We are recommending the Penders line with a two thumbs up endorsement.

Their brown, red, blue and yellow derived colors are from safe mineral salts and, whereas commercial products in drug stores and beauty shops often contain other undisclosed impurities, allergens and irritants, the Penders line doesnít at all. The company has added important conditioning herbs to the product including arnica, calendula, chamomile, ginseng root, hops, horsetail, lavender, nettle, and rosemary.

For we doctors and educators who are independent and who have witnessed the hair dye-cancer scandal, finding safer alternatives is an obsession. The Penders company has a safe beauty obsession too.

After trying them many people prefer these products to the commercial permanent and semi-permanent hair coloring products sold in drug stores and beauty shops. We are recommending the Penders line with a two thumbs up endorsement.

Light Mountain® Natural Hair Color and Conditioner and Henna Gray are both 100 remium Henna® Another Great Alternative

Henna, a naturally occurring plant native to the Middle East, has been used for thousands of years as Mother Nature's hair colorant. A semipermanent hair color, henna is completely nontoxic. Modern hennas create a wide range of very natural and beautiful hair colors.

One of the excellent qualities of henna, neither permanent or semipermanent hair coloring products possess, is that it only slowly washes out of your hair. Thus, as new hair is growing in, the problem of noticeable roots is minimized. It also actually protects the hair.

Henna is a great conditioner. Use a little daily as well for thicker, softer, fuller hair.

One company has perfected the henna process. Light Mountain® Natural Hair Color and Conditioner and Light Mountain Henna Gray are excellent products, which also come in a wide range of color variations. In fact, Light Mountain Henna Gray is the only henna product available today that can entirely cover gray with a two-step process. The Light Mountain Natural line not only adds great color shading to hair, henna is a terrific hair conditioner.

Light Mountain comes to consumers from a Twin Lakes-based Wisconsin company, Lotus Brands, Inc., which has consistently taken a conscientious and consciousness-raising approach to its link with customers. Lotus is also a major publisher and distributor of ayurveda, aromatherapy, reiki, alternative health, and classical spiritual books.

How to Locate Paul Penders Color Me Naturally and Light Mountain Natural Hair Color and Conditioner and Henna Gray

To find a health food store in your area carrying either the Paul Penders Color Me Naturally line or Light Mountain® Natural Hair Color and Conditioner and Henna Gray, contact Lotus Brands, Inc., Box 325, Twin lakes, WI 53181 or call them at (800) 824-6396 or (414) 889-8561. Their e-mail address is: lightmtn@lotuspress.com or penders@lotuspress.com. Lotus Brands is the exclusive North American distributor of the Paul Penders Color Me Naturally line.

Henna Use Tips

Light Mountain provides detailed instructions, cap and gloves, so you have everything you need. Be sure to follow these guidelines, however, when working with henna:25

- Always wear gloves when using henna as it contains a resinous substance called hannatannic acid with a coating action that can color skin and nails.

- Distilled water is best to use when mixing henna.

- Always use glass, ceramic, or plastic bowls. Stir with a wooden or plastic spoon. Never use metal utensils or a metal container when mixing henna as henna can react to metal.

- Be careful if you have a perm or chemical tint. Chemical residues left in the hair can react with the henna and cause unusual shades or brassy colors. This can also happen with hair that contains chlorine residues from swimming.

- Test on a swatch of hair.

- Over a period of several days, the new color will go through subtle and dramatic changes.

Safe Shopping Tips (Boxed Sidebar)

Follow these guidelines when selecting a hair coloring product:

- Read labels. Avoid choosing any product whatsoever listing the phenylenediamine chemical family.

- Look for the following disclaimer on the package:

CAUTION: This product contains ingredients which may cause skin irritation on certain individuals and a preliminary test according to accompanying directions should first be made. This product must not be used for dyeing the eyelashes or eyebrows; to do so may cause blindness.

In both the U.S. and Canada, such warnings on the label mean that the product contains ingredients which are exempt from provisions of the Food, Drug and Cosmetic Act, including phenylenediamine-based dyes.

- There is some evidence that most of the cancer risk of hair dyes is attributable to the darker shades.

- Some mainstream manufacturers have begun offering hair coloring products to which theyíve added herbal extracts, and then call these products natural. Forget it. Every line we investigated contained deadly phenylenediamine dyes.

The Beauty Industry's Dirty Secret

The fact that the hair color industry is legally exposing millions of women to carcinogenic chemicals without label warnings is, in part, due to legislation governing cosmetics dating to the 1938 Federal Food, Drug, and Cosmetic Act. At that time, intensive special interest lobbying on behalf of the hair dye industry persuaded Congress to exempt the dyes used in these products from government regulation. Under the Act, only an acute health hazard warning is required to be included on product labels that blindness might result from use on eyelashes and that a preliminary test should be conducted to avoid allergic reactions.26, 27

This legislation shouldn't be an excuse for the Food and Drug Administration's inaction on this issue. The fact is that the FDA has never gone to Congress asking for regulatory authority over hair dyes. Nor has it advocated explicit labeling of hair dyes for their carcinogenic hazard. The FDA has always heeded lobbying pressure from the hair dye industry. The dirty secret behind hair dyes' glamorous facade remains concealed in a complicit unspoken pact between Congress, the beauty industry, and lobbyists.

About The Author and The Doctors' Prescription for Healthy Living

This story was originally published in The Doctors' Prescription for Healthy Living whose publisher and editor is David Steinman. He is author or co-author of Diet for a Poisoned Planet (Crown 1990, Ballantine 1992), The Safe Shopper's Bible (Macmillan 1995), Living Healthy in a Toxic World (Perigee 1996), The Breast Cancer Prevention Program (Macmillan 1997) and the forthcoming Doctors' Arthritis Cure (Keats Publishing 1998). He is chairman of Citizens for Health and served two years on a committee of the National Academy of Sciences where he co-authored Seafood Safety (National Academy Press, 1991). Steinman is a member of the teaching faculty at National University. He has won awards from the California Newspaper Publishers' Association, Sierra Club, and Society of Journalists' Best of the West. He is married to the artist Terri Steinman and they have one son.

Subscriptions to The Doctors' Prescription for Healthy Living are $19.95 per year and $34.95 for two years. Make checks payable to Freedom Press and send to 1801 Chart Trail, Topanga, CA 90290. Stores may purchase bulk quantities of The Doctors' Prescription for Healthy Living. Call (310) 455-3333 or fax to (310) 455-3203 for more ordering information.

Safe Shopping Chart

In the following chart, we have evaluated a wide range of hair coloring products. Many belong to a class of hair colorant implicated for their cancer hazard. Though not all were specifically studied in the studies we reviewed, all of these products contain or have contained types of dyes that have shown suggestive to conclusive evidence of a cancer hazard; these products, as a class, suggest the hazard. Note the safe Paul Penders and Light Mountain brands. See above for their telephone number and other information to find a health food store nearest you carrying their products. Your local health food store carries these products.

Hair Coloring Products for Women

Product

Health Risks


Allergies Cancer

Irritants

Born Blonde No-Peroxide Lotion Toner (Blissfully Blonde)

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK

Clairesse Gentle Colors for Permed & Delicate Hair (Medium Ash Brown)

CAUTION

CAUTION

Clairol Balsam Color Conditioning Shampoo-In Haircolor (Palest Blonde)

CAUTION

CAUTION

Clairol Frost & Tip

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK

Clairol Light Effects

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK

Clairol Loving Care Color Lotion

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK

Clairol Nice ín Easy

CAUTION

CAUTION
Clairol Maxi Blonde The Maximum Hair Lightener

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK

Clairol Hairpainting Quiet Touch Brush-On Highlighting Kit Blonde to Light Brown Permed Hair

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK

Clairol Quiet Touch Brush-On Highlighting Kit Hair-painting Original Formula for Blonde to Light Brown Hair

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK

Clairol Ultimate Blonde

CAUTION

CAUTION

Clairol Ultress Gel Colourant (Dark Blonde)

CAUTION

CAUTION

Great Day Dark Brown/Black

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK

Hennalucent by Ardell

MINIMAL RISK

no risk

Jerome Russell Spray-In Color Highlights

CAUTION

no risk

Light Mountain Natural Hair Color & Conditioner (all shades)

no risk

no risk

Light Mountain Henna Gray (all shades)

no risk

no risk

L'OrÈal Advantage (Light Ash Brown)

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK
L'OrÈal Excellence Color Reliance (Dark Brown)

CAUTION

CAUTION

L'OrÈal Performing Preference Les Blondissimes

MINIMAL RISK

CAUTION

L'OrÈal Performing Preference Permanent Creme-In Haircolor

CAUTION

CAUTION

L'OrÈal Summer Soleil Subtle Hair Lightener

CAUTION

MINIMAL RISK

L'OrÈal Super Blonde Lightener Kit

MINIMAL RISK

MINIMAL RISK

Miss Clairol (Sunny Blonde)

MINIMAL RISK

CAUTION

Paul Penders Color-Me Naturally

no risk

no risk

Revlon Colorsilk Salon Formula Ammonia-Free Haircolor

CAUTION

CAUTION

Salon Formula Sun-In

MINIMAL RISK

no risk

Wella Color Charm Liquid Creme Hair Color

MINIMAL RISK

CAUTION

References

1 Markowitz, J.A., et al. "Hair dyes and acute nonlymphocytic leukemia (ANLL)." American Journal of Epidemiology, 1985; 122: 523. Abstract.

2 Cantor, K.P., et al. "Hair dye use and risk of leukemia and lymphoma." American Journal of Public Health, 1988; 78: 570-571, as cited in Zahm et al. 1992.

3 Zahm, S., et al. "Use of hair coloring products and the risk of lymphoma, multiple myeloma, and chronic lymphocytic leukemia." American Journal of Public Health, July 1992; 82(7): 990-997.

4 Brown, L.M., et al. "Hair dye use and multiple myeloma in white men." American Journal of Public Health, 1992; 82: 1673-1674.

5 International Agency for Research on Cancer. IARC Monographs on the Evaluation of Carcinogenic Risks to Humans. Occupational Exposures of Hairdressers and Barbers and Personal Use of Hair Colourants; Some Hair Dyes, Cosmetic Colourants, Industrial Dyestuffs and Aromatic Amines. Volume 57. Lyon, France, 1993.

6 Thun, M.J., et al. "Hair dye use and risk of fatal cancers in U.S. women." Journal of the National Cancer Institute, February 2, 1994; 86(3): 210-215.

7 Brown, L.M., et al. "Hair dye use and multiple myeloma in white men." American Journal of Public Health, 1992; 82: 1673-1674.

8 Markowitz, J.A., et al. "Hair dyes and acute nonlymphocytic leukemia (ANLL)." American Journal of Epidemiology, 1985; 122: 523. Abstract.

9Cantor, K.P., et al. "Hair dye use and risk of leukemia and lymphoma." American Journal of Public Health, 1988; 78: 570-571, as cited in Zahm et al. 1992.

10 Zahm, S., et al. "Use of hair coloring products and the risk of lymphoma, multiple myeloma, and chronic lymphocytic leukemia." American Journal of Public Health, July 1992; 82(7): 990-997.

11 Shafer, N. & Shafer, R.W. "Potential of carcinogenic effects of hair dyes." New York State Journal of Medicine, 1976; 76: 394-396.

12 Kinlen, L.J., et al. "Use of hair dyes by patients with breast cancer: a case-control study." British Medical Journal, 1977; ii: 366-368.

13 Shore, R.E., et al. "A case-control study of hair dye use and breast cancer." Journal of the National Cancer Institute, 1979; 62: 277-283.

14 Hennekens, C.H., et al. "Use of permanent hair dyes and cancer among registered nurses." The Lancet, June 30, 1979, pp. 1390-1393.

15 Nasca, P.C., et al. "Relationship of hair dye use, benign breast disease, and breast cancer." Journal of the National Cancer Institute, 1980; 64: 23-28.

16 Rojanapo, W., et al. "Carcinogenicity of an oxidation product of p-phenylenediamine." Carcinogenesis, 1986, 17(12): 1997-2002.

17 IARC 57 1993, p. 105.

18 Lynge, E. & Thygesen, L. "Use of surveillance systems for occupational cancer: data from the Danish national system." International Journal of Epidemiology, 1988; 17: 493-500.

19 Silverman , D.T., et al. "Occupational risks of bladder cancer among white women in the United States." American Journal of Epidemiology, 1990; 132: 453-461.

20 IARC 57 1993, p. 105.

21 Cantor, K.P. & Lynch, C.F. "Occupational risk among women from a case-control study of six cancer sites in Iowa." National Institutes of Health International Conference on Womenís Health: Occupation & Cancer, November 1-2, 1993. Abstract.

22 Kuijten, R.R., et al. "Parental occupation and childhood astrocytoma: results of a case-control study." Cancer Research, 1992; 52: 782-786.

23 Kramer, S., et al. "Medical and drug risk factors associated with neuroblastoma: a case-control study." Journal of the National Cancer Institute, 1987; 78: 797-804.

24 Bunin, G.R., et al. "Gestational risk factors for Wilmsí tumor: results of a case-control study." Cancer Research, 1987; 47: 2972-2977.

25 Lotus Brands, Inc. Package insert. Twin Lakes, WI.

26 Nader, R. "The regulation of the safety of cosmetics.î Consumer Health and Product Hazards/Cosmetics and Drugs, Pesticides, Food Additives. [editors] Epstein, S.S. & Grundy, R.D. Cambridge, MA: The MIT Press, 1974, vol. 2, pp. 100-102.

27 Epstein, S.S. Politics of Cancer. San Francisco, CA: Sierra Club Books, 1978, pp. ????

Friday, August 11, 2006

About the Cancer

Well I went this past Wednesday and blood work done and it came back great. Yahooooooo well next Thursday and Friday will be the 2nd round of Chemo for me so any and all prayers are welcome that I don't get sick this time either.

Thanks to all the well wishers for your prayers they are greatly appreciated.

Hope everyone has a fantastic weekend.

Don't forget to stop and smell the roses and laugh a lot it does a body good.

Dianne

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Well It's Official I Have Cancer

Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Well Tomorrow is a big Day!
Tomorrow I go for my Mediport and the rest of the stuff. Getting a bit scared but ok I guess.
No eating, drinking or smoking after 12 midnight. Been there done that it get easier each time I have to do it....lol
Family will be there that's a big plus and glad for it. Done a lot of praying and tonight I will be praying for all the folks that are going to be cutting and poking around on me and the nurses and anyone else I have to come in contact with... Lord please let this day be their best day at work. I will also be praying the Chemo doesn't freak me out as well...hehe.
Dear Lord for anyone going the Cancer right now I would pray for your grace, strenght and all the power you can give us to fight this thing. I will do the best I can on my side and the rest I leave in your Hands O Lord. Thank you for all your blessings big and small and that people everwhere turn to you dear Lord and believe you and your words. I trust in you and believe in you dear Lord as my Savior and God. Amen

Wednesday, July 26, 2006
I HAVE CANCER ON THE RUN!!!
Well I arrived at the hopital at 6:30 am ready to fight. I was in excellent spirits. Surgery started at about 7:45 am took about 20 mins. for the Mediport implant and woke up with in recovery feeling rather good. I had to wait for a room half the day but that I was patient...lol. Got to my room around 4 pm. Eat some supper. Then they time came for a sampling of my Rituxan they gave me some tylenol in pill form and some benadryl interavenous waited a while for that to kick in then they started the Rituxan I received about 100 mg. for about an hour and a half. Everything went well got a bit of a warm feeling but when the drug was over and removed I got the worst chills I ever remember having. I finally fell a sleep that was about 8:30 pm and I woke up around about 10:20 pm that same night and felt great. I was really strange to feel so good. So I personally called that a good day.

Thursday, July 27, 2006
THURSDAY ANOTHER SUCCESSFUL DAY!!!
Well today was another great day I received the rest of my Rituxan about 780 mg. I didn't have any other reaction but a slight warm sensation and when it was over no chills what so ever. This took all together about 5 hours I believe. I even had my lunch during the the Chemo and still I felt great. I have had so many people praying for me and I just know that I trusted in God to get me through this and said I can do nothing and I turn over all my worries to you God and here we go. And he was with me the whole time and I had no fears I felt peaceful and even happy. The people at the hospital, the nurses, the staff folks were excellent in everyway, there wasn't one person in that whole hospital that wasn't a team player and the greatest at telling everystep what was about to happen at any given moment. The gave me resources out the ying yang.
To the Staff, Doctors, Nurses, employees of Lewisville Medical Center I salute you...they are the most caring and wonderful people to have looking out for ya. To Annie and Kay :), God Bless you ladies for all you did in helping me feel at ease and getting me through CHEMO with flying colors.
Another very successfull Day...Yahooooooooo.

Friday, July 28, 2006
FRIDAY THE DAY OF 3 DRUGS!!!
Well today was going to start early or so we thought so I could possibly go home early. But there was a hitch. Seemed that there were 3 other people having Chemo that day and so I would be late in getting my last 3 drugs going for the day but we finally started around 1pm.
I was first given a bag of a mixture of Desamethasone and Ondansetron (Zofran) first I believe then I also took 5x20=100mg of Prednzone tablets which I will also take for the next 4 days too. After a while I was given an injection of Vincristin which didn't take long, then the next thing I was given was called Doxorubicin (Adriamycine) it's a reddish drug that took about 45 mins. Then the last thing I was given was Cytoxan (Cyclophosphamide) that took little bit over 2 hours to complete. I was still feeling great I got through a few minutes before for supper came and the nurse said if I didn't get sick by 6:30 pm I was out of the there ...and I was like yessssssssssssss I am going home.
Well my mom was there with me through that whole time and she was a great distraction and comfort to me. We sat that counting down the minutes and praying I would get sick and I didn't. 6:30 pm came and Annie popped back in and said your going home sweetie. And I can tell you I started packing at 5:45 pm cause I knew I was going home.
Again all I can say is a great big THANK YOU TO ALL THE FOLKS AT LEWISVILLIE MEDICAL CENTER. YOU FOLKS ARE THE GREATEST, MOST EXCELLENT, WONDERFUL PEOPLE I COULD HAVE EVER HOPED IN MAKING MY STAY A GREAT SUCCESS. THANKS A MILLION.

Saturday, July 29, 2006
Next will come the Hair Loss Joy Joy Joy...NOTTTTT!!!
Well it's Saturday and things still going pretty good. Only problem today was my face stayed a little flush and pink but still not sick...I am sooooo glad.
I went shopping for a wig oh boy. It wasn't as bad as I thought, I tried on a 3 or 4 not sure what I want yet long, short or in between or what color even. Guess if is starts falling out I will be forced to pick something.

Sunday, July 30, 2006
STILL DOING GREAT!!!!
Today was still another good day. The Chemo still hasn't gotten me down yet. Just a bit tired but I am still pushing on.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Surgery/Biopsy

Well I had my biopsy done last Thursday 7/13/06. Seemed to go well
I suppose. Surgery is not a fun thing but something one simply has to
do it at times in order to find out what's going on inside ones body.

I had found a lump under my chin and it started to grow so had it removed
and now the waiting to game to see what it is. I choose NOTHING.
A minor inconvenience. I admit I was scared for a while but I won't claim
it as Cancer. I believe God watches over me. And I believe if it is something,
it is simply something to test my strength and ability to adapt to
change. I feel God tests us from time to time and for me I don't like
change and so therefore God gives me little tests. This it seems was change. So this
is where the poem came from. My situation at the time. Just venting and
rambling as usual.

Oh and don't let me forget...lol. The next thing will be a Hernia...joy joy joy.
NOTTTTTT.

A poem I wrote

Scared Is This Woman
by Dianne P.

There once was a woman
She lived quite a life
Filled now with worries
And all kinds strife
She visits her Doctor
Because of what she has found
A lump in her throat
Not put there by
A stunning revelation as you might get
From some anticipation
But by unknown forces working
And tolling away
To destroy her little old ordinary life
A test here and there,
Well we’re not quite sure
But go see Doctor so and so
He might be the one who may know
So on her way she happily goes
She’s given her films to show her hopeful finder
Of heaven only knows.
It might be nothing
It could be something
Who has the answer?
To know for sure if its name is called
CANCER

Monday, April 24, 2006

My new Grandson Taylor



Grand babies are great fun don't ya think?

I love the expressions they have on their little sweet faces. To funny.

Geeez folks her she goes again with that darn camera.

Please someone take that thing away from her will ya.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Rambling Thoughts

Rambling Thoughts

I fill my days with empty moments.
Oh, at work I can be most productive.
But when I enter my humble domain,
I am but empty and feel so plain.
Like a blank piece of paper,
With no pen to place up on me,
To give me purpose,
For my lonely existence has never been clear,
What once held me back was nothing more than fear.

There are those that have many pens with awesome colors,
Their pages all filled to over flowing,
You can read them like an open book.
Some strokes are strong and others weak,
Their pages all filled so nice and neat.

Mine on the other hand is blank and bleak.
It makes me sad,
Searching for what I seek.

So on a journey I have traveled far and wide,
I now find myself on the other side.
With pens in hand I write upon my page,
No longer is it blank as one cast’s a gaze.
But instead placed upon them are strokes and such,
They are now mine to have and to touch.
They bring thoughts of purpose,
In this time of my life,
When I giggle and laugh without worry or strife.

So as my life turns, one page at a time,
You see that it doesn’t all have to rhythm.
There are twists and turns,
Both valley’s and peaks,
They are about the choices I have made,
And the things I choose to seek.

My future looks bright,
As I have now seen the light,
I wonder no more,
I know who I am.

Curious but puzzled,
I will continue my fight.
To love each day just a little bit more,
So that when my times over,
I will know for sure.

That in this life God gave to me,
He had a purpose as you might see,
For this little girl to have trust and faith,
And love for the Lord who will always keep her safe.

By: Dianne P.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

No Drama = Stress Free Life

Drama

By: Dianne P.


Life is a stage and we are all players.
Is it possible to live life without it?

Drama

Drama: can be tragic,

can be fiction,

can be a performance,

can be a show of ones true colors,

can be one making a spectale of ones self,

can be a never ending story for some.


Drama....can you live without it or do you choose to be held in it`s clutches?

Have a nice day!!!

New Year 2006

Well a New Year has started. I truly hope this one is much better than the last one. So far so good I guess I would say as of today.